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Lilith The Liberator

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If you have arrived here, then you must be ready to some degree to explore what has been hidden in plain sight for thousands of years.


The Feminine.


Contrary to popular belief, the spiritual war is happening in the feminine principle.


Many in the magical community still cling to the traditional portrayal of Lilith as a succubus demoness, the fallen first wife of Adam, but her narrative is more complex and compelling than that. In the original mythology, Lilith is imbued with fierce independence and an unwavering demand for equality. 


However, her independence and refusal to conform to traditional gender roles led to her departure from Eden and eventual portrayal as a succubus demon. By portraying Lilith as a succubus, the narrative effectively demonizes her desire for equality and autonomy, perpetuating the notion that powerful women are dangerous or demonic, reinforcing paternalistic power structures. 


Through my carefully observed direct experience as an outsider occupying the shadows of society, I have come to reject the traditional portrayal of Lilith as a succubus demoness and instead recognize her as the embodiment of primordial nature itself. From this point of view, I observe the hermetic laws of nature, informed by the perennial Western dark feminine outsider,  a powerful symbol of dark feminine power and liberation.


I see the concept of the "dark feminine" as raw nature. That perspective is deeply rooted in many ancient mythologies, spiritual systems, and psychological theories. It signifies the primal and uncontrollable forces of nature and the unconscious mind. It is our most primal instincts: survival, procreation, and the raw emotions that come with them, such as anger, passion, jealousy, and desire.


In contrast, Eve is often portrayed as the idealized feminine figure, molded to reflect the archetypal narcissist and his false self. This portrayal of Eve as the false feminine of culture reinforces patriarchal power structures and maintains the status quo within the self and outside the self. In reality, Eve is the shadow of Lilith, not the other way around.


We can liberate Lilith by observing the shadow of Eve in our own lives and society. 


In the primal tapestry of Western creation mythology, these two feminine archetypes emerge—Lilith, the symbol of raw nature, and Eve, the embodiment of cultured femininity. These archetypal figures trace their roots to ancient times, yet their influence remains deeply ingrained in the psyche of Western society.


This struggle and the steps towards resolution underscore the importance of embracing the Lilith within, a step towards reclaiming the unfiltered, undiluted power of the feminine principle. To free the feminine principle from these shackles, we must, in a symbolic sense, murder Eve. Only through this sacrificial act can we restore Lilith to her rightful place and reinstate her as the reigning embodiment of the feminine. In the cosmic balance of 'as above, so below', it is time to bring the spirit of Lilith from the depths of the underworld back to the light of consciousness, reclaiming the inherent wildness and unfiltered power of feminine nature.


In a world where systems of power and oppression like governments, organized religion and academia threaten to lead us down a path of destruction and despair, it is more important than ever to return to the root and embrace the power of Lilith. 

Coming October 2023

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Return to the root. Know thyself.
A summer of study and initiation.

What is the problem?


The problem is something that's been hiding in plain sight for a long time:



What is the solution?


Becoming aware of this rootlessness.


Then, what is the action? 


After becoming aware of it, unpacking it:


When we are rootless, we become nothing but wind. And when all we are is wind, we are easily swayed, brainwashed and manipulated. It is easy to trick a people with an identity crisis, and that identity crisis comes with rootlesness.


This is true for those who have fallen out of touch with their original culture, whether by forced displacement or willful migration. What happens as a result of this is that those rootless people will look to those who are rooted (or at least perceived to be rooted). Then they will become envious and covetous. And then, they will steal. This is true both individually and culturally. It is the envy of Lilith.


This rootlessness can be seen everywhere today.


But one group has gotten lost in the middle of our current identity crisis: WOMEN. 


Women were the first to be colonized when the power split them in two: the madonna and the whore. This was when the feminine started warring with itself. 


Conquer and divide is the first rule of war. It is easier to overcome your enemy once this is done. It is easier to control a people when they are divided. The same goes for an individual; it is easier to control a person once they are fractured. That is the essence of the "as above, so below."


The feminine has been looking for her root ever since, whether she knows it or not. This is why the first rule is to bring her to awareness.


Now homeless and wandering about without her root, she is easily manipulated and molded into something that will enable the Power which split her in two in the first place. In this case, that power is her enemy, but she is unaware of this. Because she is unaware--living in amnesia--she marries him.


She is brought into his home, and she will be happy because she is tired of the wild. She was vulnerable and scared.


And now she is living not under the law of nature but under the law of man, from which he has perched himself up high above his own law, subjecting everyone else to it.


So she becomes a mirror for him, only a reflection of himself, not having a SELF of her own. Generation after generation, the birth of daughter after daughter, the collective SHE is now living in so much amnesia that the amnesia itself becomes The Way. All along The Way, though, there are moments of remembering, like a firefly floating over somewhere in the dark. 


It was there, then it was gone.


It is a peripheral experience that she doesn't give much thought to because her living is for, and with, this new law of man...a rootless law full of wind.


But one day, an event occurs for her that forces her into her body and out of the air. It is usually a profound loss of something. It shocks her into another level of awareness, into suffering... something that is like a dark night. Suddenly she is aware that there is another story of mystery, terror, insecurity, fear... a thrust into the wilderness once again. A wilderness her ancestor knew so long ago before her ancestor was brought into the house of the new law.


And although this is suffering, it is more true and real and it brings with it a craving for its bitter medicine, like a smelling salt snapping her out of her sleep--a sleep induced by her mother, that was induced by her mother's mother...... and now what?


She is being called home, back to the root. It is the root that remembers her true identity, and in this true experience are levels of initiations, rites of passage for her to KNOW HERSELF. ... FOR  Woman that has long been veiled and buried underneath the intergenerational rubble of WOMAN, the consequences of the conquer and divide, the war within Herself. ... the thing to be rediscovered is her true identity... the one co-opted and used by the power to keep himself living on high, like an overlord over nature herself.


In this post-modern time, the feminine is all at once in recovery while living in dystopia. How does she exist simultaneously as the root in a society that lives in wind?


Do her ancient earth initiations have any place here in the wind?


Or, are these rites of passage still here but just look different?


This is what Mary Magdalene in Dystopia will uncover and explore.

Meet Chriselda

Shadow work is quite the buzz word these days and it seems like everyone is offering it. To me, it's essential that the facilitator understand the shadow from their direct experience. As a retired sex worker of 20 years, I embody it. I've lived it. this was never a part-time passion for me. it was and remains my entire life experience. as a consecrated gnostic priestess, I can assure you that all of my courses are filled with curriculum and learning that has been tested against my own life. It is what I put together to make sense of this mad world and am excited that I can now share it with all of you.


Hi! Larry the Devil here. I am Chriselda's personal assistant. We have had many, many adventures together, from the Vatican to the Texas State Capitol. If you need anything, please use the chat box to the bottom right of your screen or the contact page.


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Kyle Texas, 78640

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